Today I read again the book that I love and appreciate, Happiness Now authored by Andrew Matthews
I had grown sick of my current job and felt like giving up
I had forgotten about the Law of Life - Enjoying Your Work
I had forgotten about my belief to make the world a better place
Those kids, they are so bad at their studies
I wanted to help them but now I feel like there is nothing that I can do
Now, I guess I should pick up my courage and slam myself unto the wall
The walls are the students
Since they don't appreciate that much about what the teachers do
Maybe banging on them tons of times would break the wall down

Two nights ago I was rereading "He's With Me"
Aww, the love story is so cute
Realizing that Lexie was the girl that Jake loved after asking her to be his pretend girlfriend was so cool
:)
So upsetting for Lexie as she hoped everything was real
And then!
VOILA! The truth reveals
Jakey confessed his love <3
-squeals-
YES! AND THE ROMANTIC CONFESSION UNDER THE FOUNTAIN WITH THE ORIGAMI WHALE, WILL YOU BE MY GIRLFRIEND, FOR REAL?XD
Oh gosh , that certainly knocked the socks out of Lexie :p

Ah well, think I'd be continuing on with Island Summer (also a reread)
AW, this had a twist in the end of the story, but it is fun to reenact the remnants of my memories of the story
I only remember Nikki but forgot the cute guy's name in the story HAHA
:X Guess I have to refresh my memory!

Toodles with love,×iα●γin9


Dear diary, it's so true that I had grown lazy of writing my daily life
Sometimes it is just too upsetting
I write memos in my phone on certain issues which I would like to write
So that I can remember
But sometimes I just don't have the time to write here
Because I'm really long-winded haha

Fringe is my favorite sci-fi drama ever since I watched the first episode of Season 1
It's like the best show ever!
It is so amazing because the show is all about pseudoscience
They make the theories possible in the show which wow-ed me a lot
Last week Fox just announced that Fringe will be renewed for Season 5
Which made me REAL happy!
However, it makes me sad too because Season 5 will serve as the show's finale
Which means I have to say goodbye to Olive, Peter and Walter >:
I can't believe that this is happening
Next year I would have to bid goodbye to my favorite show that I had been supporting for 4 years running

Last week's episode was "Worlds Apart"
I felt so sad because we had to say byebye to the alternate universe
Is that the end of them?
I would miss our Lincoln so much and I hope Lincoln would get together with Fauxlivia
It is so sad that I have to say goodbye to the Astrid at the other universe
She has such a special mind, so good at analyzing info and I feel sad cause she can't taste coffee anymore
That is because they don't have coffee on their side >:
I don't really have feelings for Walternate even though he is actually a kind guy
I prefer our Walter more >< I was so scared Peter would disappear once more when the machine shuts down BUT HE DIDN'T OH EM GEE when the other side vanishes, only Walter moved The rest were like statues (including Peter) Which scared the hell out of me! CAUSE I thought something went wrong! Then Peter turned around and smile Aww >: Shocked me
When the show ended I was already missing the other side TT
Please bring the other side back!

I hope Season 5 would be a blast
But I feel so sad so sad to see the end of the story
Good things always comes to an end!
It's so inevitable >:
FRINGE <3 with love,×iα●γin9


I'm currently working at a tuition centre
The students here are all primary school kids
There is one particular girl who caught my attention
Her name is Wen Qing
She has a fiery temper which reminds me of myself, in the past
She just blow her temper out, lashing at people
The way she talk is like a machine gun
And that reminds me of myself too
She is now in Primary Six
Maybe she didn't have any friends who told her that she needs to curb her temper

I had a friend in Primary Three who helped me curb my temper
I chose to smile every day instead of losing my temper
I remind myself to smile when I felt like I'm getting angry over something
Eventually I dumped the spoilt girl version of me

I noticed her today when she was blowing her temper
I could see that she reached the peak of her tantrum
She cried..
I will start crying too when I reach my limit
Then I feel that every thing is stupid
What I did and what I was being angry about
Tears of awakening? ha ha
Sounds silly enough
But oh well, I hope the best for her
It's not good to get angry that often anyway
It kills our cells :/ with love,×iα●γin9


I really feel really upset when my mum compare me to someone else
She may be good in some aspects, but I'm definitely better than her in certain aspects too
I envy her confidence but I don't feel that I would lose to her
Okay seriously I just don't get it
Is it fun to compare your child with other people's child?
Wouldn't it be best if you can see the uniqueness in your own child

I'm going to attend an interview soon
I feel so upset that she felt glad that I didn't apply for the same course that SHE did
Like my chances are bad if I chose the same course that she did?
Seriously
In what way had I lost to her so badly?
Results?
Even though her result is perfect : 10A+
I only scored 8A+ , 1A and 1A-
So what?

What is wrong with being myself?
Playing online games and staying home?
This is me?
Why can't she appreciate what I am
I don't study 24/7 like she do but I still can get this almost perfect results
It's already the end of the story
Why must you say IF you never play you can do better
I know I can do better but I can't face my books 24/7
Seriously
Gah! I give up with love,×iα●γin9


My dear diary,
I feel glad that I still have you even if I have nobody else to turn to anymore
I don't know why I'm this foolish
I ended up crying because of some stupid issues that happened in an online game
How silly does that sound?
I care for virtual people whom I don't even know in real life
I feel hurt and sad because of them
But they are not real
I know they are not real
I live in delusion every single day
Living in a virtual world which is totally like dreamland
But dreamland shouldn't hurt, or should they?

I care and I don't know whether they care
Why would they care anyway
I'm just a nobody
In real life or in virtual world
Nobody ever listens to me
Maybe I'm just a fool
I feel that everything is just nothing
Nothing is real
They weren't real in the first place anyway
Why am I so stupid with love,×iα●γin9